So today July 3rd is my biological son, Joseph's, 10th birthday! I think of him often but especially on this day and think about the horrible pain I went through 10 years ago but also how wonderful it was to see his beautiful face. His cute little fingers and toes made me smile and his hair was long and dark brown. The nurses put his hair into a little Mohawk, it was adorable. He was the most precious thing I have ever seen and nothing has ever come close. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I miss him very much. He has the best parents and the life that I wanted for him. He says that I am "The best birth mother in the whole entire solar system, that he loves me, and that he can't wait to meet me!" I couldn't ask for anything more when it comes to a birth son. He is wonderful and happy. I do wonder what he looks like but I bet he is a looker and will be a heart breaker when he gets older. What a sad day for me but I am a proud birth mother and I realize that I am one year closer to meeting him again. I made cup cakes in honor of him and may watch the video tape I have of him when he was a baby. I also take out his baby blanket for a few days. I am sure he is having a fun day and getting spoiled. He loved the presents I sent him and I hope he gets some other good presents! He knows why I gave him up and is thankful to me. I am thankful to his parents for telling him such great things about me so that Joseph and I can have such a loving relationship.
From Gods Arms to My Arms to Yours
With so many wrong decisions in my past, I'm not quite sure
if I can ever hope to trust my judgement anymore.
But lately I've been thinking, 'cause it's all I've had to do.
And in my heart I feel that I should give this child to you.
(Chorus)
And maybe you can tell your baby,
when you love him so, that he's been loved before;
By someone who delivered your son
From God's arms, to my arms, to yours.
If you choose to tell him, and if he wants to know,
How the one who gave him life could bear to let him go;
Just tell him there were sleepless nights; I prayed and paced the floors
And knew the only peace I'd find is if this child was yours.
(Chorus)
Now I know that you don't have to do this,
But could you kiss him once for me
The first time that he ties his shoes, or falls and skins his knee?
And could you hold him twice as long when he makes his mistakes,
And tell him that he's not alone, sometimes that's all it takes.
I know how much he'll ache.
This may not be the answer for another girl like me;
But I'm not on a soapbox saying how we all should be.
I'm just trusting in my feelings and I'm trusting God above,
And I'm trusting you can give this baby
Both his mothers' love.
(Chorus)
3 comments:
This post was awesome. Happy birthday to Joseph, my birth nephew!
How lucky Joseph is to have two mother's that love him so much. I can't believe he's ten already.
Your one of my heros. What an unselfish act of love. he is a lucky little boy.
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